An hour ago I watched as a needle went into my vein, sliding in effortlessly, a slight sting when it broke the skin. It went nearly unnoticed. During many years of medical treatment I have had hundred of blood draws but also injections, shots. I am unsure if Americans use the word injection and that … Continue reading In and Out Goes the Needle
Play With Me
She is on her phone again. Talking, listening to music, playing on apps. Not playing with me. Not talking to me. Not holding me. I'm twelve years old. I'm her only child. I don't have a dad. Well that's not true. I go to stay in his house one night every two weeks. He's usually … Continue reading Play With Me
Anger, Frustration and Fear
I am so angry right now. People who I thought cared about me have acted in manners that show the opposite. I am trying to rise above it. I am finding it unbelievably difficult. I have asked many people for their opinions on these issues. Everyone has agreed that the people have acted selfishly and … Continue reading Anger, Frustration and Fear
Falling into Oblivion
How should I write this? It seems I should know already, but I don't. It is hard for me to remember things. I suppose I'll remember this. No. I won't remember. When I open my tablet to write something else, this will be visible in my drafts. Then I will remember. No. As I said. … Continue reading Falling into Oblivion
Fucking up again, and again, and again…
Here we are again. It never ends. No. I never end. I am in self-destruct mode again. I'm in a destroy everything and everyone around me mode. I am hurting myself, killing myself. More importantly I am hurting the most important people in the world to me - my children. I can see it from … Continue reading Fucking up again, and again, and again…
Sneachta Bán
If you want to hang out, You've gotta take her out, cocaine If you want to get down, Get down on the ground, cocaine - Eric Clapton - Cocaine A friend of a friend of a friend showed me to you tonight... An Sneachta Bán, I tasted you before I felt you, Excited before the … Continue reading Sneachta Bán
Hungunder – Once in a Blue Moon
I feel like I should be feeling something different, something other than I am feeling. I think I feel a little hungover, but I can't be because I didn't drink last night. I often feel like this when I don't get enough sleep the night before. Did I sleep well last night? Yes. I think … Continue reading Hungunder – Once in a Blue Moon
