Hollow out my stomach, my chest, my all.There will be no agonizing, burning, stinging pain.Mostly.Instead, a soon to be familiar ache.Waxing and waning.Always present once begun. That feeling.The one that moves up and down.Side to side.Is sometimes forgotten. A sensation that is always present.It fades into the background. Something occurs.An event usually not foretold.I pull … Continue reading Hollowed
The Change
I'm looking out the window. A beautiful lush green tree. Perfect blue sky. A smile on my face quickly fades. Is this perfect day despite or because of climate change? Does is matter? Neither have an impact on the fact that climate change exists. The new normal is not normal. It is change. From here … Continue reading The Change
Childhood of Children
My children run in circles around me. Around each other. Joining so many other children. Shouting. Laughing. Varying facial expressions. Of delight. Surprise. Bliss. Children with children. A beautiful, magical thing. Acting as if steadfast friends, family. Misunderstandings. Disagreements. Pacts. High fives. Quickly resolved. More giggles and shouts. Forming rules of some made-up game. Memories … Continue reading Childhood of Children
Alone in a Crowded Room
Alone in a crowded room Quintessential loneliness Not always bad A place of strangers No one talking to each other Perhaps better than a room of knowns Comfort with company that don’t expect anything An elderly woman approaches to talk A brief interruption A welcome interruption We discuss my book and her book And then … Continue reading Alone in a Crowded Room
Exhausted
I am exhausted. I moved out of my house two days ago – only two – with two of my children. Who knew living in one bedroom would be so awful? Ah, they’re not too bad. I mean given that they’ve just left the only home they’ve known. Both nights they have beaten the crap … Continue reading Exhausted
Saving My Breath
My eyelids flutter. I am not quite sure they are mine. A dream perhaps? Directly under a ceiling, with generic white tiles usually found in offices and schools. I attempt to move my head to the left and then the right. This causes neck pain. No stiffness. I have an extremely limited range of motion. … Continue reading Saving My Breath
Yes we deserve something
TMI warning. You know the first day or two of your period? It’s so fucking heavy it reminds you of the elevator scene in The Shining? So you wear the biggest, purplest, most absorbent tampon on the planet. Tampax brand. Because you know. Inside your knickers you put the biggest, purplest, most mattress-like pad there … Continue reading Yes we deserve something
