Hollow out my stomach, my chest, my all.There will be no agonizing, burning, stinging pain.Mostly.Instead, a soon to be familiar ache.Waxing and waning.Always present once begun. That feeling.The one that moves up and down.Side to side.Is sometimes forgotten. A sensation that is always present.It fades into the background. Something occurs.An event usually not foretold.I pull … Continue reading Hollowed

Childhood of Children

My children run in circles around me. Around each other. Joining so many other children. Shouting. Laughing. Varying facial expressions. Of delight. Surprise. Bliss. Children with children. A beautiful, magical thing. Acting as if steadfast friends, family. Misunderstandings. Disagreements. Pacts. High fives. Quickly resolved. More giggles and shouts. Forming rules of some made-up game. Memories … Continue reading Childhood of Children

Saving My Breath

My eyelids flutter. I am not quite sure they are mine. A dream perhaps? Directly under a ceiling, with generic white tiles usually found in offices and schools. I attempt to move my head to the left and then the right. This causes neck pain. No stiffness. I have an extremely limited range of motion. … Continue reading Saving My Breath